A Moment Of Confusion

Confusion is one of those things that happens more often than not especially when you have made a decision to follow the Word of God.
I would like to share with you what has been going on the last few days.

I just recently began a new job and my time has been very limited. I am working 12 hour days and by the time I get home I am dragging. I have maintained my praise and worship time with God but it hasn't felt like enough. I said a prayer on my way to work and apologized for being so busy and not being able to devote every single moment to Him. Before I end every prayer my words are as follows "O that you would bless me indeed and enlarge my territory."
I do have to say that my employers have been gracious enough to not only consider but encourage all of us to be ourselves. They have welcomed my beliefs with open arms and are allowing me to implement God through prayer and music where my class is concerned. I have been blessed immensely by this opportunity.
I was approached on Sunday with a family who is Russian. There child speaks broken English, must maintain a diet only by Russian standards and his parents are Atheist.
As all of you know I am renewing my walk with God that I have missed out on most of my life. When I was confronted with this I was also reminded that if one parent said I had to take Christianity out of my class then that was the way it was.
I immediately felt a sickening feeling in the pit of my stomach. I began praying and while I was doing so my boss returned and said "I need to know if we need to send this child to another class by 2:30 tomorrow afternoon."
Judgment was the very first thing I felt. How could they? I asked. How could you raise your child without the knowledge of Christ and then tell me I am not allowed to continue in my own beliefs? I was angry and then confused. I came home and called my brother and my sister in law and then spoke with my husband. I didn't really get the answer I was looking for until about 3:30 this afternoon. An hour after I was to reveal my answer to this little boy's family.

This is my answer:

What a blessing-what an honor it is to be given an opportunity to touch not only this little boys life but the life of his family and friends. What an enormous amount of trust God must have in me that he would place this little boys life in mine at a time that is crucial to both of us.
We spend so much time being angry and pointing fingers and yet we are no better. Because he spoke the words, " I am an atheist" I immediately judged him and his child. Although I am not an atheist I have not raised my child the way God has commanded us in his word and I am no better.
Who am I to stand in judgment? I am a child of God and you lead by example. I don't have to Bible beat anyone into believing the way I do, all I have to do is pray and trust that God will show me how to care for this little boy.
His family may be led and they may not but what an honor to know that for a brief moment in this child's life he was sent to someone who does know God and can show him how special and how loved he truly is. Everything happens for a reason and if you just trust in Him, he will give you the answer's you are looking for. He will enrich your life and he will bless other's through you if you just put yourself aside for one moment and see other's through God's eyes~maybe then you will truly get it~"O that you would bless me indeed and enlarge my territory!"