I Dare You To Live With A Passion For Your Life!!!

Most of you know the repetitive anguish that has happened seemingly on a continual basis the last few months.
It has been very difficult, almost impossible to keep my head up and if I do it’s only for a moment. I still wake up, make jokes, act like myself but for the one’s who truly know me; know the heartache each incident has caused.
Broken is the only way to explain in one word how I feel. I consider myself to be a pretty strong woman-I have always tried to remind myself that the word says "The sufferings of the present time will not compare to the glory that is to be revealed to us." There are times however when those words don’t matter.
I get angry and frustrated-I want to give up and walk away from this life all together because I don’t understand it. I want to stand on the tallest mountain and scream WHY???? so loud that God will have to answer me to get me to shut up!
I get anxious and I fear a phone call or a knock at my door-I fear my health on a daily basis-fear fear fear-I go through all of this-but at the end of the day I seek truth and I seek reason. "Lean NOT to your OWN understanding"
That’s a little hard at times because I’m impatient I want to know now!! I want a reason and I want to be justified in some way or another. I don’t want people to think ill of me I want them to know the truth!!! So when do you start caring what God thinks of you and becoming satisfied with that?I’m here today to simply state a few things.

This is based on Proverbs 15:15 (look up "evil foreboading") and then the book of Psalms where David continues to pray for mercy chapter after chapter~and can’t we ALL relate to that??!!

Living with negative, critical and threatening feelings will always- no matter what steal your joy. If you live in the "what’s the next bad thing that’s going to happen" mode you are doomed for failure EVERY time!!!
You are preaching to the choir here-I know about anxiety and fear. Fear for tomorrow, fear for today, anxiety has ruled my life for quite a while now. As believer’s we are programmed to believe that Satan is the direct cause of all bad things that happen...in area’s that is true...in other’s it is not. Things just happen! When you choose to live your life for Christ and I never understood this until now-when you choose to live your life for Christ I think we just notice more. If we didn’t notice,we would have no one to blame therefore at times putting a wedge in between yourself and God saying "well everytime I get closer to Him I get hit" Do you realize that JOY does not come from circumstance? Satan believes if he can steal your joy than he’s won because it is that joy that determines your strength.

Living everyday in the what if’s steals your joy. Questioning what’s going to happen next-steals your joy. Being anxious about everything-steals your joy. So why bother? I had a very good friend of mine write to me sometime ago (Wes) and he said "Maybe God placed you in that school to save a life and maybe your job is done there and he has something else for you to do." He said "I challenge you to think on this level" I have clung to that statement from that moment on and looking back at all the ridiculous things I have encountered I see where God has worked through me to better each situation I have been in-NOT FOR ME-FOR OTHERS. And isn’t that what we want? To be servants of Christ??

I spent years trying to find my purpose and a preacher told me once (Mr. Donald) your purpose is to be a LIVING SACRIFICE. I didn’t know what that meant until JUST NOW!! To be a living sacrifice means that you sacrifice whatever it is for the greater good of SOMEONE else!! This life isn’t about us- it is about fulfilling God’s purpose THROUGH us! Selfishly we think "well it is about us, why do I always have to suffer because of someone else?" How much did Christ suffer and he is GOD’S SON?? You don’t have to live with a defeated attitude. God promises us our hearts desire but to get there you must travel a course that isn’t so pretty sometimes. You don’t have to be perfect but isn’t your goal to become "Christ-like?" In that way of thinking you will then find comfort in knowing that your sufferings are only for a moment. God WILL bless those who seek his face. I struggle with that too living in the NOW as we all do but be patient-your time is coming.
MY time is coming~Satan will always think he’s won as each day passes and I continue to get beat down by the most preposterous things but as difficult and inconsistant, at time torturous and frightening my life has been I’M STILL HERE!!! I’m still fighting my way out-I’m still strong and I still BELIEVE with all my heart that good things WILL come to me.
Call me crazy but God has promised me a life of ABUNDANCE!! What would become of me if I believed that my blessings were only gained in heaven? I would quit-TRUST ME-but God has work to be done through me and until that work is finished I must STAND! God is constantly molding us-shaping us into HIS image. That takes a lot of work especially someone like me. Years of anger, pain, self-inflicting notions the list goes on and on-it didn’t take a day to get here so what does that tell you??

I challenge every reader to stand with me-I DARE you to live with a passion for life! I dare you to BELIEVE that something GOOD is going to happen to you today-you say well it didn’t-then believe it tomorrow-well Vic it didn’t AGAIN-then BELIEVE IT AGAIN!!! Believe-believe-believe!!! Look the devil dead square in the eye and tell him "Devil I WILL OUT LAST YOU!!!!" I’m still here and I’m not going anywhere I WILL OUT LAST YOU!!!! "Me and the devil-we had a tussle, BUT I WON-me and the devil, we had a tussle but I won-me and the devil we did agree-I hate the devil and the devil hates me-Me and the devil we had a tussle-BUT I WON!!" This song was written and sung by Jesse Duplantis-simple but powerful!Anyway I’m done-lol I know this was long but you guys know I can’t shorten anything!! LOL HA!!! LOVE!!