Forgiveness

Lord, help me to be a forgiving person. Show me where I am not. Expose the recesses of my soul so I won't be locked up by unforgiveness and jeapordize my future. If I have any anger, bitterness, resentment, or unforgiveness that I am not recognizing, reveal it to me and I will confess it to you as sin.

Specifically I ask you to help me full forgive myself. Make me to understand the depth of your forgiveness and assist me so that I do not hold back forgiveness from others.I realize that forgiving others doesn't make them right; it makes me free. I also realize that you are the only one who knows the whole story and you will see justice done.

Help me to forgive myself for the times I have failed. And if I have blamed you for things that have happened in my life, show me so I can confess it before you. Enable me to love my enemy's as you have commanded in your word. Teach me to bless those who curse and persecute me. (Matthew 5:44-45) Remind me to pray for those who hurt or offend me so that my heart will be soft towards them. I don't want to become hard and bitter because of unforgiveness.

Make me a person who is quick to forgive.Lord, show me if I have any unforgiveness toward my mother or father for anything they did or did not do. I don't want to shorten my life by not honoring them and breaking this great commandment. And where there is distance between me and any other family member because of unforgiveness, I pray that you would break down that wall. Help me to forgive every time I need to do so. Where I can be and instrument of reconciliation between other family members who have a broken or strained relationship, enable me to do that.I don't want anything to come between you and me Lord, and I don't want my prayers to become hindered because I have entertained sin in my heart. I choose this day to forgive everyone and everything, and walk free from the death that unforgiveness brings.If any person has unforgiveness toward me, I pray you would soften there heart to forgive me and show me what I can do to help resolve this issue between us. I know that I cannot be a light to others as lonf as I am walking in the darkness of unforgiveness. I choose to walk in the light as you are in the light and be cleansed from all sin. (1 John 1:7)In your name I pray ~Amen~

I have really been dealing with the power that unforgiveness brings and the way it has hindered my life as well as my walk with God. Oddly enough the hardest person to forgive has been myself. We ask God for forgiveness and yet we still hold on to our own sin. We allow our choices to build up and use guilt as a tool to keep us away from the presence of God.

"Put off, concerning your former conduct, the old man which grows corrupt according to deceitful lusts, and be renewed in the spirit of your mind, and...put on the new man which was created according to God in true righteousness and holiness." Ephesians 4:22-24It's a very difficult task, forgiveness but what an awesome release when we have perfected it. Anyway-I just wanted to share in case someone reading may be dealing with the same.

Word To The Wise

You keep coming to me like this
Broken and weak
I have taught you better
Do not embrace defeat

My word will give you direction
Why don’t you just take heed
Listen closely to your heart
In it you will find me-BELIEVE!!

On your knees you pray
You seek my face
You walk away
And dry your tears

In an instant I find
After you finally confide
You conform to the ways
That I hate

It’s simple really TRUST in me
It is in the renewal of your mind
The love you seek you will find in me
Vickiey-You MUST give it time

You have been broken I know
But peace exsists
You just have to be patient
You’ll see-
That the very things you are searching for
YOU WILL ONLY FIND IN ME!!!!

I Dare You To Live With A Passion For Your Life!!!

Most of you know the repetitive anguish that has happened seemingly on a continual basis the last few months.
It has been very difficult, almost impossible to keep my head up and if I do it’s only for a moment. I still wake up, make jokes, act like myself but for the one’s who truly know me; know the heartache each incident has caused.
Broken is the only way to explain in one word how I feel. I consider myself to be a pretty strong woman-I have always tried to remind myself that the word says "The sufferings of the present time will not compare to the glory that is to be revealed to us." There are times however when those words don’t matter.
I get angry and frustrated-I want to give up and walk away from this life all together because I don’t understand it. I want to stand on the tallest mountain and scream WHY???? so loud that God will have to answer me to get me to shut up!
I get anxious and I fear a phone call or a knock at my door-I fear my health on a daily basis-fear fear fear-I go through all of this-but at the end of the day I seek truth and I seek reason. "Lean NOT to your OWN understanding"
That’s a little hard at times because I’m impatient I want to know now!! I want a reason and I want to be justified in some way or another. I don’t want people to think ill of me I want them to know the truth!!! So when do you start caring what God thinks of you and becoming satisfied with that?I’m here today to simply state a few things.

This is based on Proverbs 15:15 (look up "evil foreboading") and then the book of Psalms where David continues to pray for mercy chapter after chapter~and can’t we ALL relate to that??!!

Living with negative, critical and threatening feelings will always- no matter what steal your joy. If you live in the "what’s the next bad thing that’s going to happen" mode you are doomed for failure EVERY time!!!
You are preaching to the choir here-I know about anxiety and fear. Fear for tomorrow, fear for today, anxiety has ruled my life for quite a while now. As believer’s we are programmed to believe that Satan is the direct cause of all bad things that happen...in area’s that is true...in other’s it is not. Things just happen! When you choose to live your life for Christ and I never understood this until now-when you choose to live your life for Christ I think we just notice more. If we didn’t notice,we would have no one to blame therefore at times putting a wedge in between yourself and God saying "well everytime I get closer to Him I get hit" Do you realize that JOY does not come from circumstance? Satan believes if he can steal your joy than he’s won because it is that joy that determines your strength.

Living everyday in the what if’s steals your joy. Questioning what’s going to happen next-steals your joy. Being anxious about everything-steals your joy. So why bother? I had a very good friend of mine write to me sometime ago (Wes) and he said "Maybe God placed you in that school to save a life and maybe your job is done there and he has something else for you to do." He said "I challenge you to think on this level" I have clung to that statement from that moment on and looking back at all the ridiculous things I have encountered I see where God has worked through me to better each situation I have been in-NOT FOR ME-FOR OTHERS. And isn’t that what we want? To be servants of Christ??

I spent years trying to find my purpose and a preacher told me once (Mr. Donald) your purpose is to be a LIVING SACRIFICE. I didn’t know what that meant until JUST NOW!! To be a living sacrifice means that you sacrifice whatever it is for the greater good of SOMEONE else!! This life isn’t about us- it is about fulfilling God’s purpose THROUGH us! Selfishly we think "well it is about us, why do I always have to suffer because of someone else?" How much did Christ suffer and he is GOD’S SON?? You don’t have to live with a defeated attitude. God promises us our hearts desire but to get there you must travel a course that isn’t so pretty sometimes. You don’t have to be perfect but isn’t your goal to become "Christ-like?" In that way of thinking you will then find comfort in knowing that your sufferings are only for a moment. God WILL bless those who seek his face. I struggle with that too living in the NOW as we all do but be patient-your time is coming.
MY time is coming~Satan will always think he’s won as each day passes and I continue to get beat down by the most preposterous things but as difficult and inconsistant, at time torturous and frightening my life has been I’M STILL HERE!!! I’m still fighting my way out-I’m still strong and I still BELIEVE with all my heart that good things WILL come to me.
Call me crazy but God has promised me a life of ABUNDANCE!! What would become of me if I believed that my blessings were only gained in heaven? I would quit-TRUST ME-but God has work to be done through me and until that work is finished I must STAND! God is constantly molding us-shaping us into HIS image. That takes a lot of work especially someone like me. Years of anger, pain, self-inflicting notions the list goes on and on-it didn’t take a day to get here so what does that tell you??

I challenge every reader to stand with me-I DARE you to live with a passion for life! I dare you to BELIEVE that something GOOD is going to happen to you today-you say well it didn’t-then believe it tomorrow-well Vic it didn’t AGAIN-then BELIEVE IT AGAIN!!! Believe-believe-believe!!! Look the devil dead square in the eye and tell him "Devil I WILL OUT LAST YOU!!!!" I’m still here and I’m not going anywhere I WILL OUT LAST YOU!!!! "Me and the devil-we had a tussle, BUT I WON-me and the devil, we had a tussle but I won-me and the devil we did agree-I hate the devil and the devil hates me-Me and the devil we had a tussle-BUT I WON!!" This song was written and sung by Jesse Duplantis-simple but powerful!Anyway I’m done-lol I know this was long but you guys know I can’t shorten anything!! LOL HA!!! LOVE!!

May We Never Forget The Words Of A Child

Father I am in awe of the way you work and the humbling spirit you place in us in times like these. Lord that you would place so much love in our hearts that the children we have been entrusted with will learn that this type of love can only come from you.
Lord that they see your glory in the face of adversity and that we fail them not but in fact build them up and may prayer and supplication be our guide.
That it is your face we seek when we become discouraged or overwhelmed. That you show us love through the eyes of a child and may we never forget the innocence in these children, all of them.
That we do not take for granted the opportunity set before us to draw closer to you. That we see family as what it is and unite as one for the greater good of our children. May we always remember the face of Benjamin and the tears that they weep-may we be reminded of how blessed we truly are.

When coming to you may we remember that your will is what we seek, not our timing or OUR way but that we know without a doubt that we are following the demands of the King of Kings.

That our prayers reach you and the answers come so boldly that to deny them could never be an option. Lord that doors will open where you will lead and allow us the honor to remain in your favor.

Allow us to speak with purity and compassion-allow us to become life changing through our example to Brayley, Jayden, Isaiah, Isabella, Anne Elise and Madison. That these 6 children who have been given to us by you know that they are loved beyond what we ourselves can offer-allow your spirit to lead. Let us fail them not Lord-fail them NOT!!
Let us teach them your way and not our own, allow them to realize that with each prayer they speak and we speak together that it is one more moment closer to you. Let us be their father and mother's that YOU designed us to be but let them know that no matter who we are to them YOU are so much more!

Let your love fill our home and may we never forget what we have in each other. Let the material things we strive for be replaced with the ability to love more than we ever have. Let us not be guarded Father-and humble us in spirit-"Satan comes to kill, steal and destroy, but Christ comes so that we may know life and live it more abundantly!" May we NEVER forget the words of a child!!!